Ch-Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes

Posted by: Samantha Ann King on Jul 8 2012, 1:00 am in , , ,

Two years ago, a friend of mine gave me this purple coneflower for my **th birthday. I kept it in its original pot for a couple of months, but it didn’t seem to like it there. It wasn’t growing. Still, it was so small–only two leaves–I worried it wouldn’t survive if I planted it in my garden. Obviously, it hasn’t just grown but has thrived. It loves its new digs.

I was in a hole on that particular birthday – a really deep, dark hole. I’d spent twenty-odd years as a stay-at-home-mom. My son was in college, my daughter in high school, and I desperately needed to figure out what to do with the rest of my life. There was other stuff going on, but at the crux of it all,  I’d stopped growing. Worse, I was afraid of the changes I needed to make to restart that growth.

No, not just afraid. Terrified!

At the half century mark, I was contemplating what I wanted to be when I grew up. I kept coming back to writing. But even as I kept coming back to it, I kept rejecting it—as editors and agents had rejected me when my children were young and I’d taken pen to paper . . . or fingertips to keyboard. I knew how difficult the writing life was. I knew better writers than I who’d been working at it for twenty years and still hadn’t published. I knew the odds of selling were about as good as winning the lottery, and unfortunately, not nearly as lucrative.

Yes, I’m exaggerating the odds part, but that’s what writers do. Because as it turns out, I am a writer. I can’t not write. Letters, emails, opinion pieces, and stories. Every little thing I write, I pour my soul into. So one day two years ago, I made a deal with myself. If I sat down at the computer every day for five days a week and wrote, and if I did this for a whole year, I would acknowledge that I’m a writer. And maybe in a couple of years, I’d start submitting.

Things went fairly smoothly. In six months I had a novel. I entered it in a contest and started the next novel. That’s when the plan went off course and the changes got really scary. Because the editor who judged the contest wanted to publish my novel. Okay, back to terrifying. I didn’t know anything about the business. I’d been writing, not learning about publishers and contracts and marketing. And could I make the revisions the editor wanted? Could I complete another book? The second wasn’t going as smoothly as the first. I even considered not signing the contract. In my braver moments, I told myself that life was supposed to be like this. You challenge yourself. Deep breath. You meet that challenge. Deep breath. You move on to the next one.

Thanks to those deep breaths and some fabulous LERA members, I met those challenges and moved on to the next one. It’s still scary. Some days are great. Others, not so much. But like my coneflower, I’m not just growing. I’m thriving.

 Samantha Ann King’s debut novel, Sharing Hailey, will be released on July 9 by Carina Press. You can connect with Samantha on Facebook and Twitter.

13 Comments

13 responses to “Ch-Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes”

  1. Robin Perini says:

    Samantha–this is a great, great article!!! I’m SO excited you decided to take one more risk and spread your wings! It’s a great lesson to us all…cause if we don’t try, we can’t succeed.

    Congrats on all the success, my friend! You deserve it! Congrats on taking that deep breath and meeting that challenge head on!!! You’re an inspiration! Huge HUGS!

    Robin

  2. Jeffe Kennedy says:

    Fabulous story, Samantha! Enjoy release day tomorrow!!

  3. Thank you, Jeffe. It’s another one of those take-a-deep-breath moments!

  4. Mona Karel says:

    Samantha, thank you for a wonderful Sunday story. And for sticking to it. We need as many talented people around as possible! Looking forward to your release!!

  5. Barrett says:

    Thanks for your perseverance and sharing the the ‘real ‘ side of being a writer. It’s so much easier to just appear without explanation, but the gritty back story is really what inspires the intrepid! Congratulations.

    Barrett/jeanne

  6. Great post!

    Thank you for sharing. Writing and putting yourself out there is very scary and success can be just as frightening, too.—until you start cashing those royalty checks! I’m crossing everything for your great success with Carina Press! ;0)

    You are such a ‘bright light in the room,’ of course you couldn’t stop writing. I’m so happy for your release tomorrow. I will go get it!

    Tammy

  7. Congrats on your release today, Samantha! And thanks for an inspiring post. I agree, each new step IS scary, especially when you think you aren’t ready to go there.

    I think learning to overcome–or at least deal with–fear and self-doubt is one of the many skills writers learn on their journey.

    Great post! 🙂

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